Purpose

For the past couple of weeks, Ive been struggling with having a purpose. I suppose the adequate thing to say would be direction. I have been trying to find things to do every day that I can be proud of, things worth my time. However, in my quest I run into these walls, or barriers. These barriers are no doubt set up to try and stop me (that is the def of a barrier). The challenge is presented then to try and dismantle these barrier walls.

Today when I was having my quiet time, it hit me (as often times Gods word does) that my purpose every day should be: WHAT DOES GOD WANT ME TO DO FOR HIM TODAY?

Ephesians 1:9 & 10 -

"And He made known to us the mystery of his will according to his good pleasure, which he purposed in Christ, to be put into effect with the times will have reached their fulfillment - to bring all things in heaven and on earth together under one head, even Christ."

God allows us to go through seasons of our lives and at this particular place in my life, I am at a crossroads. I am experiencing change like never before. New things to come, but my goal for now until this season is over is to wake up, commit every day to finding & doing Gods purpose for me, and living every day to the fullest.

A few other things I have in my head:

- I think I need to cut back on coffee, esp in the morning (blood sugar drops are not fun)

- I really want to make roast chicken. I was watching Barefoot Contessa yesterday and oh my! That lady can cook.

- I am excited to have a small herb garden when Charles and I find a home, which hopefully will come to pass this weekend in the ATL.


k - im done.

stop

So Im going throughout my day and I just STOP.
why?
i dont know.

I feel as if I cant breathe, as if I cant think, as if I cant continue.
Defeat is not an option. I shall combat this attack the only way I know how, prayer and supplication. I am at a crossroads in my life now, dealing with a lot of change.
New things happening
New feelings being felt.
New New New.


I found this verse today:

1 John 4:4 (The Message):

^4-6My dear children, you come from God and belong to God. You have already won a big victory over those false teachers, for the Spirit in you is far stronger than anything in the world. These people belong to the Christ-denying world. They talk the world's language and the world eats it up. But we come from God and belong to God. Anyone who knows God understands us and listens. The person who has nothing to do with God will, of course, not listen to us. This is another test for telling the Spirit of Truth from the spirit of deception.

The promises are evident, God provides security, protection, and strength for us whenever we need Him and even when we think we dont.
I want to live up to my full potential. I want to be a woman of God, living, breathing His glory.
We COME FROM GOD and we BELONG TO GOD!
this is encouraging.

pains of the weekend

this weekend has been challenging.
not terrible, but not without challenges.

Yesterday - Charles and I went Goodwill hunting for vinyls, we scored several good finds (Beach Boys ftw! )

Day of feeling blue came with a price (tiredness, cramping, cravings, etc.) - NOT FUN.

Rollerbladin'

so this morning, Charles and I went Rollerbladin':

off to a good optimistic start. however, this was before the four miles were completed.

And we went to Robinson Preserve for the lovely occasion:

after is was over. sweaty and smiling..both good signs.

so overall, today was GREAT! we....

made breakfast together.

roller bladed.

went to the beach (which was magnificent. the water, the sky, the sand...ahhh serenity).

sort of picnic-ed.

played darts (charlie has skillzzz).

rode bikes to Sweetberries for some tasty frozen yogurt.

went to church (amazing, powerful message that I needed to hear - its God great like that?).

ate steak (um...yes!).

hung out with my best friend.


ah. today was a good day.

What A Weekend!

Oh MY!

well there are a few new happenings that have recently developed this month:

1. I am moving!
To ATLANTA!
I have decided to start school at Le Cordon Bleu Culinary Arts School. 10 months and I shall be a certified pastry chef! I love baking, I love cooking, I love creating and making little things for people to enjoy. My passion is to create and I hope that through this program I will be able to share something special with people.

2. I am ENGAGED!!!





COURSE ONE FOR BREAKFAST IN BED: AN ENGAGEMENT RING!

YYEAHHH!!!!



oh my...it was an ENGAGING weekend indeed.

I cannot explain how much I am in love with Charles James Elmore III.